These things terrify me I am left wondering will it always be like that? Will I always feel this alienation, this heartache for what life could have been like if I had married and stayed on in India- been close to my family and old friends. What if I am 55 yrs old and I still feel like this what a wasted life it will be….

So dear IL members, especially the ones who have lived and settled lives abroad please tell me truthfully how you’ll feel. I have an aunt whom I spoke to before I got married. She was settled in the US after marriage and had 3 children(all very well educated) . She spent 35 years here, now she has returned back to settle down in India in her retirement years. I can’t understand that. How can you go through as much adjustment, sacrifice , and then land up returning to your home country? After 35 years and turning from age 25 to 60 is India still your home country?