The Unspoken Feelings of an ANGEL !!

Anamika looked at the beautiful, pretty flowers in her hostel garden.She could’nt take her eyes from that beautiful sight..She was siting under a big tree penning her thoughts in the form of verses.She always had a thrist for the cool evening breeze ,the fragrance of the roses and jasmines and also loved to watch the big blue sky and singing birds..

She loves nature..She admires each and everything in nature.This naturally turned her to be a writer..She wrote many beautiful poems and stories ..not only about nature but about all from pencil to planetarium.. She was gifted by God indeed to pen mind blowing articles..Nature was always her best friend and she spent most of the time in the Garden after her classes..She was very reserved ..she hardly spoke to anybody in her class…But Swetha was the only girl who herself made Anamika’s friend and wanted to be her friend always .Swetha was a SweetHeart..Still then Anamika never thought to be intimate with her because of her reserved character she herself built around her ..

Her articles were regularly presented in her college magazine.She writes in the name of Angel and her ‘HOD’ was the only person to know that the author was Anamika..Since it was Anamika’s request to the HOD ,she didnt disclose to any one,.even between the staffs…When anybody was curious about Angel for the wonderful writings ..She would just say that its one of the writings of a Alumni who writes for the college magazine.Anamika’s articles were very popular and she had tremendous fans. Even many of the Lectures were her fans…Without knowing the face ..they became ardent fans of her fantabulous writings.Most of the time her classmates and also her Lecturers discussed, debated, gave nice feedbacks about her writings in front of her…Anamika kept silent at those factors,but her heart was in cloud nine.Angel was the word uttered by many and also they started Angel fan club.

It was the Tech-fete in her college. All were enjoying and busy preparing for the evening grand function..Anamika was not interested to involve in all these so she went to her room. Seeing Swetha inside the room that too reading papers from her cupboard was shocked.. Heyyy !! Swetha What are you doing here ? She grabbed the papers from her…First Answer my question ..yelled Swetha.. Are these articles written by you…?? Is the wonderful writer of the College Magazine my Friend…?? Is Angel ..Anamika?? OH MY GOD !!Anamika nodded her head with tears rolling.. Then Why??? Didn’t you reveal this Anamii ?? You know How many fans you have in our college for your writings..You are gifted child Anamika .. Swetha wiped her tears and hugged her.Anamika this time hearing Swetha’s statements became turbulent….Me?? gifted by GOD… She bursted out ..Look at me Swetha look at my face….Swetha was confused this time….

Anamika continued…Didn’t you see my face my Dark complexion, my Oily skin, my Improper tooth, My short curly hair my skeleton body .…..Do you know how inferior I feel with all these rugged features… I have a complex because of my appearance from my teen .. I know how many bad comments I get when I pass through boys outside the college ..Even some girls have commented me..I pity myself and also hate myself many times .Right from school Im terribly affected by all these comments . Not even one heart to encourage or sooth me.. because of the agonising comments I stopped writing long time back.. but I thought of writing in College magazine which was a outlet for me. I don’t want to manifest myself as a writer . I just want the people to love my writings and I surely know if they see me…They wont love me as they love my writings. I will become so hurt when they throw a bad comment this stops me to write. I don’t want to stop writing again..because it has become my Passion and my World….. her body trembled in tears…..

Just Stop it Anamii ..Is this a reason for not exhibiting yourself.. Do you think that love flourishes only because of the External beauty. Aren’t you a Stupid to think like this..? Pure and true love only looks for another lovely heart nothing more than that .Where does beauty come here ?

Just Stop your ridiculous imagination and come with me…She took her to HOD…She understood what would have happened seeing the girls. Yes ,Swetha Thanks for bringing Anamika at the right time here.Today Evening I was thinking to reveal the Secret with the permission of Anamika…She is going to get a prestigious award for the BEST WRITER in the College from our VC…

That evening was a unforgettable evening for Anamika… When Anamika was on the Dice hiding all her nervouness with a conditional smile…the whole auditorium was filled in applause…and cheers !! seeing the unknown writer. Everybody was exicted..and Anamika ‘s eyes were filled in tears ,she was unable to see the audience with her filled eyes…
All girls shouted in glee calling her Angel !! Angel !!Anamika came off the dice..where she was surrounded by her classmates and juniors asking her autograph.. her class girls hugged and kissed her….This time Anamika felt really like a Beautiful Angel with all the Love of others…She realized that External beauty will not conquest LOVE ever.
She threw her Inferiority Complex that minute and understood there are people who not only love her writings but also HER…

There are many more Angels in this world. The reason for the inferiority complex may differ in each ..But this IC is one which acts as a big barrier in their LIFE hindering them to step FORWARD in the path of Success .. and also they Miss Many Wonderful Things of Life.

Hi Brindha

You are right .........Inferiority complex pulls us down n down for no valid reason . It makes our identity unspoken . Its good to come out of it and face the world with the thought that U ARE UNIQUE IN YOUR OWN WAY......

Regards
Santasekar

Dear Brindha,

I always look forward to read ur writings,,,U can count me as Compulsary reader of Ur posts..Its magnetism of ur writes..

Wow !! Very good story with a Message..IC is the much spread venom like AIDS in India which can be more or less seen in Middle class lower class and ofcourse in some cases of Upper class Families in India may be because of financial issues,beauty,courage or the narrow minded ness of people..

I do not know when ever I read ur post,I shed atleast 1 tear..So U makes me to cry always....My Unspoken Feeling for U..

Hugs,
dg..

Dear Brindha,

What a beautiful story! Enjoyed reading till the very end.You have conveyed a very important message about beauty being skin deep only and that there are many other aspects of beauty like other talents like that of being a good writer like in the case of Anamika.If only there were more Swethas n the world then the poor Anamikas of the world need not suffer in silence but they can find a champion for their cause like Shwetha was for Anamikas talent being given exposure to the rest of the world .Compassion and love for those not endowed with other good things alone will rid us of this scourge of Inferority Complex.
Great piece ...Brindha dear ..keep writing ...expecting more from you.
All the best.

warm regards,
PAULINA

Brindha dearie
Very well told beautiful story... You have conveyed the important part of beauty is skin deep so well.. do keep writing:)

Brinda,
Nice one, which clearly specifies how bad this IC is...equally bad is SC...
But to our hearts content this IC has no place in ANGEL's life from now on...
Only true and real beauty wins...at last..

sriniketan

dear brindha,

good one...if only everybody realises that they are unique in some way or the other they wouldnt have this IC...BUT sadly many girls develop this if they are dark or fat..upto parents to boost up their confidence...

Mindi

My Dear Angel Brindha,

Nice writing with beautiful message once again ... Like all other girls liked Anamika's (Angel) writing, you have become my Angel too ... The way you write is simply cute ... Well explained about IC ... but I feel sad as it is still between many people around the World ... They have to clear themselves this else no way ... Thanks for sharing this lovely message with all of us my Angel ... God Bless you my sweet Brindha ...

Hey Brindhak,

Beautifull written, thoughtful story !

Very catchy words "There are many more Angels in this world. The reason for the inferiority complex may differ in each ..But this IC is one which acts as a big barrier in their LIFE hindering them to step FORWARD in the path of Success .. and also they Miss Many Wonderful Things of Life."

Very true !!

Inferiority Complex and Superiority Complex are too extremes, it is better to strike a balance between them.

Originally Posted by santasekar

Hi Brindha

You are right .........Inferiority complex pulls us down n down for no valid reason . It makes our identity unspoken . Its good to come out of it and face the world with the thought that U ARE UNIQUE IN YOUR OWN WAY......

Regards
Santasekar

Dear SantaSekar Mam,
Thanx for stepping in and writing a FB.
Many people are suffering with complex may be IC or SC...which fetches more failures than success.. to them..both the complex is not good for them as well as others I think.

Thanx Mam.