A Rainbow for me!!

Sometimes when the world looks unbelievably beautiful you have to appreciate it. You have to tell the world, the nature, the universe that its beautiful. Its so overwhelming that you cant express what you feel to the universe. When words are too difficult to speak, tears come to the rescue. You can't even begin to explain to the next person the reason for the tears.

You look around the beauty of the world only when your heart is light and no issues are pressing it. It was one such time I was standing in the railway station with my grocery bags. 45 minutes left for the next train to my place and its just 10 minutes travel. Its 6.15PM, so no intention to call my home in India and wake them up, just because I had time. I had nothing to do but sit idle. After finding a proper place to sit and settling my grocery bags I straightened my legs, foldened my arms, drifted to some thoughts. Then it lead to think how much kindness life shown me.

Evenings are emotion stimulating times especially when its before rain. The Cloud gets prepared to melt; cold breeeze softly touches your face; golden sun light treats your vision. I just looked far away, I dont know what I was looking because my mind wasn't there. My mind instructed me that nobody was in the railway station, but actually there were handful of people. It felt like I was sitting in a lonely world, with all its artistry characteristics bestowed.

When I was 7 years old, I stuck my kid brother's fingers in a cycle wheel by mistake. He started to cry and nobody else was around. He raised his both arms and just when I thought he is going to beat me, he hugged me tightly. Tears welled up in my eyes and I sucked his fingers to give warm feeling, thats all I knew to treat the wound. 20 years, whenever I felt lonely, this incident comes to my mind. I dont know what is the logic programmed in brain and how this incident is picked when I feel lonely and look around the nature. I feel the same pain, affection, responsibility, love everytime when I think this. That day was not the exception. Nothing can stop my tears. Its weird that leaving the whole family in an International airport and heading to the flight wont make me cry; but an incident happened 20 years ago does.

Train has arrived and I got in a window seat. Train moved fast so did my tears. I couldn't express the farm lands, bunch of sheeps gazing around, hays stacked uniformly and all of them showered with the golden sun rays and looked yellowish. It was not a family issue, physical pain, other life problem made me to cry. But the beautiful evening and the thoughts it provoked.

Is it a feeling of happiness?

Or is it a feeling of loneliness being an ocean apart from my family?

I spoke to myself, "Silly, stop it; People in the next seat can see you; They will think that you have some problems; They might ask you, what will you reply? Come on, stop it." But this made the tears to flow even fast. Knowing that its waste of effort to stop it, I just turned my head completely towards the window so that nobody can see my face.

10 minutes. The train arrived at the station. Decided to walk away fast from the station to home, wash the face completely before my husband gets confused, I grabbed the grocery bags and got down. It was unusually crowded on a Saturday. I had to lift my head up to find my way. There were men, women, kids all cheerful looking above. Some got into preparing their camera. Instinctively, I turned back and looked in the direction they were looking. The tears in my eyes stopped. Yes, its stopped at the very moment, which 10 minutes of struggling cant do.

There it was. The garland of the sky. A massive rainbow arching from left to right end of the city. The railway station is in the outer area of the city, so there was the better view of the rainbow, at least 200 degrees. A fully decorated bride is still incomplete until she wears a garland. The nature was in its ultimate glow then.

The people stood outside the train waved and informed the passengers. One by one got down the train. The railway employees granted few seconds for them to enjoy this rare sight which wont last longer. By what luck, did I carry a camera that day? I was not the same person as the one in 45 minutes before. I didn't mind I am a grown up, I didn't mind I was alone, I didn't mind there were people around me, I just jumped, several times. For a moment I forgot everybody even who am I.

For me, that day's Rainbow was the natures way of thanking me for my appreciation to its beauty through my tears...

I turned back after taking enough pictures. Train was gone, few people were still standing. Far from the station the golden Sun is still shining. I walked few steps past the people and towards the direction of the Sun. I didn't feel the glare in my eyes. It was simply wonderful. I turned left to see the Rainbow, then right to see the Sun. I thanked both of them for their appearances on the day when I was there to see it, with my heart light.

I didnt know how long I stood there experiencing this. When I came back to my normal senses, I realised I am not carrying my grocery bags. It was several feets apart where I actually got down. It was there untouched. People were there still.

It occured to me, we run behind the life wherever it drags us to; these small small occurrences nourishes our soul, rejuvenates our mind; and then we keep running behind life as usual, with newly acquired strength.

World's precious joys are always free!!


Sharing the pictures I took. I couldn't cover the entire rainbow with my camera, so showed the pieces of the rainbow and the beautiful golden Sun that travelled all the way with me. Hope you all like it too.

 

Dear Madam,

I am honored to receive first feedback from you... Glad to know that you have experienced that situation too... There were many times I juct cried out when I can't express my feeling in words.. be it happiness or sad...

Thanks for your comment mam... Have a very good night... !!