Want to end my life :(

Here.... I am back again with the terrible and horrible life that i am having for now.... with the BS MIL and her Mama's Boy..... I am soo depressed that i really feel like ending this life now...as i cant go back to my parents and neither can i think of this Divorce thing...i dont know what to do..... last thing was hardly after pleading her by my sorry and thing and now this new things comes up and i am back to square one.....now what again the same torture and the same thing again.... PLzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...tired of it,..... am i servant that i need to keep on saying sorry for nothing..... or what.... frankly speaking i am not even in stable condition of writing something...

Just relax.
i am not sure about your problems that you posted before.
but i guess ending life is not a solution to a problem.
why should you end by the way.just becuase you have a bad mil.if thats the case atleast 50% of members in IL would have ended their lives.
about the sorry thing you siad..the word sorry is to be used only when you feel it not to satisfy someone so say it when you mean it only

hey whta th ehell ypu are talking!!!just be relaxed dear

even i faced so dirty deep non sense in chennai...

so please dont take such decisions be silent and serious allt he time let keep all the people in tension..

take left adright to inlaws when your hubby not there... if they ask you tell you did not..

take indirect classes in direct way in absense of your hubby...

Originally Posted by simran5

Here.... I am back again with the terrible and horrible life that i am having for now.... with the BS MIL and her Mama's Boy..... I am soo depressed that i really feel like ending this life now...as i cant go back to my parents and neither can i think of this Divorce thing...i dont know what to do..... last thing was hardly after pleading her by my sorry and thing and now this new things comes up and i am back to square one.....now what again the same torture and the same thing again.... PLzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...tired of it,..... am i servant that i need to keep on saying sorry for nothing..... or what.... frankly speaking i am not even in stable condition of writing something...

STOP... STOP... STOP.

Don't even THINK about ending your life. Why should you die? You are an engineer by education and profession, and it is not YOUR fault if your husband will not stop being a Mommy's boy.

If things are at such a low point that you want to commit suicide, then apply for divorce. Divorcing such a spineless man is better than dying. I am sure that your parents would much rather prefer a divorced daughter to a dead one. Is your life SO WORTHLESS that you want to throw it away for an idiot and a witch?

I am not qualified to give you any counseling, but PLEASE go see a shrink right away. You are terribly depressed and you should seek help for that immediately. Think about your parents and your sister. DON'T DO IT. PLEASE DON'T.

Simran

How long have you been married?do you have work permit?did you work before marriage? do you like working?

If anytime you think of ending your life, ask yourself one question, what diff. does it make in your husban/MILs life? If they are as crazy and as mad people as you are saying..they wont care...they would naturally move on to spoil another girls life. Do you like that? Did you think about your parents? your siblings? what pain they would go through with your decision? why hurt those people who love you...and bottom line, no one is worth of your life....your life is very precious....

Standup and ask yourself what you want? what you have in this marriage and what you dont? is your MIL going to be with you guys in UK permanently? or is it a temporary visit? If she is going to be in UK permanently...then start working or join any voluntary org. to keep yourself occupied and away from her atleast for few hours in a day. The moment you find yourself away from these people atleast for few hours in a day, you would have that mental stability and sanity of mind to think about the future and the next steps.

Start applying for work permit. start working. establish a goal in your life. Dont just think that this marriage is all what you have...it should be part of your life, not all your life. thats where you are feeling depressed...because they dont care and you are getting more upset because they dont care.

You have to take care of yourself and be confident and strong, for others to treat you with some respect.

Its just a big BS if you want to end your life for such nasty people. Rather buckle up and find ways to make them respect you and teach them how to behave. come on write to us what your thoughts are...lets discuss

Its been 3 yrs now for my marraige...i used to work before marraige...but as per husband;s promise of getting job here ..i resigned my prev job and then he got me into his business which i really dont like... i have a working permit but no working permit from these ppl...they want me to work 365/24/7 .... i take of thier business , cook food, take care of household thinngs from cleaning house to washing thier clothes , vessels (not exaggerating on washing vessels...dishwasher is not working since i have got married...and i told them to get it fixed or buy new one...yet not done anything) .. i only dont do onething that is finance as that is taken care by MIL.... as per prev post i dont get paid so i cannot buy anything i want to..... i stay with In laws...so there is no question of they staying temporarily.... Husband ... no feeling for me ... he thinks only for his parents that is it!!!! i had to go to india for my sis marraige.... he didnt come with me .. i dont know y...and then i was only given fix days till the function were performed...he didnt allow me to stay 1 day extra also.... my mil was given a surprise trip to india from my hubby for 3 weeks ffor MIL's mother 90th bday.... what else to say .... i know what you ppl are saying is right ....but for timing... i have given all my hopes of my hubby thinking about me emotionally and lovingly....Life sucks!!!

If your life sucks because that moron that you have married is non-supportive and uncaring, then you should kick HIM out of your life. THAT is the solution to your problem, not anything else. If you are being repressed and suffocated in this marriage, then walk. NOTHING is worth taking your life for, NOTHING. NOT ONE SINGLE THING.

Simran

Thank you for giving us more info...it really helps to understand the situation..

Now, could you pls think over what I am asking you now...think over atleast for a day or two and let me know...what is the most scariest thing for you?? what is it that you are more worried about? scared about? is it that if you take your own decisions, your husband would divorce you? or that you would be kicked out of the house/the country itself? that your parents wont accept you back? that society wont appreciate you? that your relatives wont accept you??? are these your fears??? just talk to yourself...if you dont want to answer here...its fine...but ask yourself , question yourself what is the worst thing and what is the most scariest thing for you...that way you wouldknow the underlying root cause of you not being able to take action.

You worked before marriage, and now you are working in your home business..thats good..but you should get paid or atlest be given some pocket money....and when thats not done, you need to raise your voice.

People walk all over you...when they know you are weak and meek. When they know your weaknesses, thats how they use you...the day 1 when your husband took a wrong decision or supported his mom for a wrong reason...you should have made it clear to him...what happened to you? you are an educated woman...how can you not make things clear to him..as to what you like and what you dont like.


Did you ever talk to him about his behaviour? what was his reaction? did he anytime get physical with you? what scares you about talking to him on whats bothering you?


Nothing is lost now...First and foremost, make it clear to him. give him an ultimatum with all the facts you have till now. what all you have done for him and his family and how you have been treated. Tell him, you would want to work on this marriage thats why you are still sticking around...Telll him, you cant work in the home business anymore and want to go out and start working. (what crap is it when you say no permission from them? you are an adult, if they want you to work for them, they have to pay you, they cant get free labor. If they cant pay you, you can as well go out and work, to get some money that takes care of your basic needs.)

You have chin up girl!!! this incapability of not being able to take action is the most depressing thing. no one is perfect, so are you...so better late than never. Give him the ultimatum and start looking out for jobs. Tell him what you want and ask him what he can do for you. Pls dont make it worse as the time goes by...if you have kids its going to be much horrible.

Start looking for a job outside, start working, rent an apt, I know its going to be very difficult, the time is going to be worst as you being all alone, with no one to support, in an alienated country, as a girl, you would be scared, feel insecured, worried...but remember you have to show your husband what does being independant mean..and what is marriage all about? living iwth inlaws doesnt mean you are like a free labor for them...the more you wait and the more you waste your time thinking of what to do....the more you will get vexed up with this mess.

If you had thought of ending your life for such nonsense people...why dont you take a chance and live for yourself for a while..and see how things come around...you never know...people might change and support you...even if not..atleast you wouldbe a confident person who stood up in tough times...rather than being a scared crow and running away from life

The problem with us women is by trying to be perfect brides we let everyone trample over us by saying yes to everything and being miserable later.
Go with your DH and get a new dishwasher, make life easier for youself.
What cannot be cured has to be endured.
Why are you saying sorry all the time ? You are a member of that family and have full rights to buy things or get things repaired. Make your schedule of work , stick to it. When you stand up for your rights things will fall in place ,there is no need to be scared and miserable .
You can get a job ,say it will pay more than home business and they can employ someone else . Bring a change in yourself and take care of the family too and things will change , be a little assertive.

hai, what is the use of ending u r life?God gave u life and he has d right to take u r life.Every night has every morning.FACE u r life with patience.One day ur patience will be rewarded.Pray to God to change your life.CREATE a hobby to change get diversion.This is my own experience.All the best.