Friends, please pray for me....

I was 12 weeks pregnant... Yesterday I went to have the first scan with mind full of curiosity and happiness to see my baby in the womb for the first time... when I was waiting with thrill,... the sonographer told- she couldn't see the baby is either moving or having heartbeats... ..it was not alive.
I couldn't stop crying...
For, this is my 3rd pregnancy I'm loosing after I got married for 3 years...
Now I'm a diabetic for the past 1 year... (got in this young age because of family history..which was a first shock for me...already..) was taking vigorous treatement... After consulting many gynecs at Chennai and taken many tests regarding diabetes and prgnancy,.. then only I planned to get pregnant...
I took insulin and followed all the instructions by the doctors very very carefully...
But even then,... yesterday I found the baby in my womb was not alive...with no reasons can be explained.
I can't explain my feelings in words... everything seems to be empty now... I can't resist myself crying and sobbing...
all the dreams and desires we had about the baby for the past 3 months had all been vanished... in one day.
But I'm happy that I've got- a good, understanding husband who loves me a lot... and loving parents and caring siblings... and of course, my IL friends with love and care... where I can share all my happiness as well as my worries...
I fear and worry that since I'm 30, diabetic,and lost 3 pregnancies,..can I get a healthy kid ever hereafter...?
I feel so guilty that I'm punished severely for I terminated the early 2 pregnancies which God gave us...( though I wanted to have them... ) I always love to have kids ... even when I was a little girl, I always be seen lifting a kid in my hands... I loved kids very much...
I'm a devotee of Pondicherry mother Mira..now I ask her with my paining heart..- "Why it happened to me...? u too mother..?"
My dear IL friends,... plz. pray for me to get consoled and get out of this sad memories which was like a nightmare ... and to get good, healthy kids hereafter atleast,...and for my good health.
Thank you in advance - for all those loving hearts praying for me...

-Thejaswi.

I dono what to say, am feel sad for what happened with you..

Be brave, keep hope, u have more life to live, may god bless you friend!!

I am so sad after reading your post ,i can understand how much pain you are going thru ,surely will pray the god to give u strength,support & happiness always in your life.
Don't worry you will get your bundle of joy oneday.with my hole heart i am praying god for you.

Hi Theja,
I can understand the pain you are going through.My prayers are with you dear.Dont worry,take rest &dont lose hope.

I pray to the almighty to give you courage to get through this and give you baby soon
Please do not think this is a punishment. Time will slowly heal you.

Take care

Hi,

I will include you in my prayers, be brave and take care of your health.

Dear Tejaswi,

My Prayers for you...

Dont worry, God will bless you with the best. Mother will always give you the courage to overcome these bad times and will sure answer you prayers.

Take Care
PoorniDaya.

tejaswi,
Cheer up, you will be healthy and you and your DH will be hale and healthy with your kids.
Will definitely pray for you...

sriniketan

Hi,
DOn't worry.
Even one of my friend went thru the same situation and today she has 2 beautiful kids.
For everything, time should come and god knows when to give.
SO don't worry, keep doing your jobs.
WIll surely pray for you.

Regards.

Dear friends,...

I'm getting recovered slowly both physically and mentally.... and trying to forget the sad happenings....
THANKS A LOT ....-- to all the kind hearts who replied and are praying for me....
Thank you for all your support... and being with me....
-Thejaswi.