A childs agony

Hi

iam a live example of effects of parents on children . iam a married women with 1 kid. i just want to share my story as i wish it helps many parents know children agony.

iam from a joint family with all relatives including one young sister of mine. but we never felt that we are in a big family .each one mind only for themselves. we have grown up with others rules and carelesness of our parents. my mom used to have relation with my dads brother. she is more bothered of her relations than us. i donno why but my dad used to be silent always (naturally so are by this thing i do no).we go to school then to tution come back watch tv thats it.no one cared for our marks,feelings.no outings, no discussions, activities life just moves on. to our fortune we have norelatives much close to us.

indirectly other members used to point out my mom and uncle infront of us but we(my sis n me) do nothing other than crying alone nor can discuss between us.my mom dad has nor i cold not have close relatives or friends.years passed on we grew up with no mental maturity jus dragging the life like a spectator.

my uncle's wife used to hate our family for obvoius reasons and chid us evry day. with this i was vexed and got out of home ifor doing PG.we got good degrees but not atitudes or maturity.fell in love but could not handle it marrried but not satisfied blah blah..........

my past always hauts me. even now i have no specific problems. i have good husband and kid but i feel iam an introvert,slow learner, cant make newfriends nad feels restlesness. after getting married i got respectable life but yet cant handle it properly effecting my family finally
bottom line is my parents became old and divded in to nuclear family living as if every thing was normal with settled daughters. i always think 1 day i question ask my parents about all this happend to us .is there any use????????

i feel shameful discusiing this but parents even this happens even these days.parents ethics always have their impact on children and future generations. do remember plz plz plzzzzzzzzz mothers plzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz .

kindly give suggestions to get out of this and come up myself

 

Thank u vjbunny and srama

i have come out of the time but not people. my DH great care and love towards thier parents seeing them i always feel emberrased. i want to share my feeelings and love but neither me nor they can do that.

my fate is limited till here


any way thank u