Is it my fault?

There are laws to deal with such people. Use the domestic violence law to get justice.No point living a life of self pity and not doing anything about it. If you won't take a stand...no one else can. Get out and take help of the law that was meant to help people like you.

 

Are you still with that knife throwing abuser?

 

LEAVE and file a case against him and his family.. a case where your IL are aware of the entire situation and want to turn a blind eye to it.. they want to blame everyone rather than face the stark truth staring them at their face.. they got you married to this loser in spite of knowing his history they are to be equally blamed.. one decision and one call to your lawyer thats what you need! take care and i hope you understand that you cannot be treated like a doormat by anyone..

 

and please stop saying it is your fault.. you are a victim here and a classic abuser will always make his victim feel that he or she is at fault.. and here his family also makes you feel the same..

 

If you have support of your parents, leave him and file a case and get a divorce and start a new life. He will not change and your ILs will not change. But the only person who can change your life is you yourself by taking matter in your hands.

 

You need to get a report filed immediately.... are you kidding me.... You are knife handled and still confused on what to do... ?? have some love for yourself .. call the police --- abusers need to know they can just mess around with women...... take him for councelling... DO SOMETHING !!!

 

I think that the fact that you post this here shows that you deep down inside know very well somewhere that you are NOT wrong not even at 1% coz no one deserves to be treated like that even if quarrels come up in marriage as they come in every marriage.
Handling you with knife? Please be very carefull as your husband seem to be a quite dangoros kind of abuser.
If your parents dont know yet inform them about the full extent of what you are going through. Dont expect any support or understanding from your Ils side, it wont come, it rather leave you in a more vulnerable state as the will gang up with their son. I guess they knew his character before they married him to you. His mother seem to try to keep u lil with trying manipulating tactics, dont fall for it. Dont ask for permission to be treated nice, take your right.
Collect secretely your things like jewelry with excuses and collect evidence of what happend to you too. Leave to your parents house with an excuse if he wont let you go peacefully, if you smell any sence of dangor get help.. threatening and injuring with a knife is a really big thing so be very carefull about your actions. Try to get proof of how he treated you. If your Ils knew or even saw what he did to you they are equally to be blamed, not only morally but by law too. I agree that its a good idea to file a case. After you left the house to your parents place pleace dont meet them alone without anyone guarding you anymore, dont talk to them without recording the conversation, dont put yourself in dangor or give them space to keep on abusing or manipulating you.

I ask you for so much carefullness with handling your situation not coz i generally support filing cases or divorces but coz the very fact he attacked you with a knife proofes for me that you face a man with a real deep issue - i dont mean to scare, please dont be more afraid, but be strong.

Wish you all the luck and strength in the world.

Edit: if its too dangoros or he cud track you collecting things before you leave and there is any chance he get furious and attacks you again, just sneak without everything out there and dont look back. Nothing in the world is worth your health.

 

You are young ,and i know for a fact that if you keep on tolerating this person , he will only excel in abusing you , so for your own sake , do something about it ...If you do not report the abuse , no one will know about it , plus if you can't stand for yourself no one will ..

Good luck