please suggest me

Well I'm hesitating to discuss these things but i need to vent otherwise I'm going crazy

We r living outside India. My husband has a very good job here but the problem is he will be always on the business trips if he stays 1 month in local the other month he will be out of station to some other country ours was a purely arranged marriage before marriage they said he will settle in India so my parents agreed they don't want me to settle in abroad so they thought its OK he will return within 1 year after marriage in the meantime i can complete my studies (i was doing my P.G at that time) so the marriage was done while I'm studying only at that time his job was not permanent so he also thought he may return to India after my studies r completed but by luck he changed to another job where his salary was in hike so he want to settle in abroad we both came from normal middle class family so he thought we can settle well if we stay in abroad so he was trying for permanent card for me also i faced lot of obstructions in getting permanent card so he asked me to stay at my in laws place for sometime but he used to take me to abroad for short visits it took 4yrs for me to permanently to settle in abroad .

So here my problems started my in laws I creating problems for me both my mil & fil started to abuse me verbally that I'm making their son to permanently settle in abroad he is the only son I'm having two sils so obviously they started to feel insecure i will change their son completely if we settle in abroad they started to badmouth me I'm wasting their sons money for visits & phone calls i used to bear everything silently as I'm new to their family and i feared they may create some misunderstandings between me & my Dh if i talk back they never left me to live in peace even if go to my parents house immediately 2nd day they use call we fell sick u had to take the hospital they use play all kind of dramas all these has taken severe toll on my health i went into deep depression and once i tried to commit suicide then my father has blasted my hus and said to him either u come and settle here or take her to ur place as soon as possible he has taken me for visit then I got the permanent card all most all problems has settled down with time but in laws greed has increased to height they cannot see anything beyond money .

This is one side my dh is good person he is very caring towards me he will help me in everything & he supports me in everything this hurting my in laws ego so every time i go to India they will create some or the other problems for me forgot to mention my hus is also having lot of ego problem i never liked his job of being business trips this is causing rifts between us he says this is time we can earn if we struggle now only then only we can settle our kid well later we can also have a peaceful life.

yes it maybe true but how many days i can pass like this i had 3yr old hyperactive so i cannot go anywhere with her yesterday also again he went to another country I'm feeling very lonely yesterday we had big argument he never like me to talk in a loud voice when argument is going he will mainly concentrate on shutting my mouth but i will go on & go so the argument will take new turn then he will take me class how one should acquire patience especially girl his main concern when he is angry i should
Not utter a word but I'm not able to remain calm does anyone facing these situation any suggestions how can i change myself i had a fear again i will go into the depression i had to look after my child these things taking toll on my head.

sorry & thanks for bearing long post

 

wow 72 views but no reply thank u freinds

 

Thank u for replying i edited the post if i start now again it will go on so its better for me to stop now

 

@DGcreative thanks for ur comforting words dear

@cutemonster thanks dear y'day whole night i was crying thinking all the past incidents i need to vent so everything came out inflow actually this is my biggest backdrop when im in a badmood all past things cope up in my mind I'm trying hard to overcome all this

 

@ tulipz currently I'm not working i had a planning to join the job next year yes regarding my dh job what u said is correct but with my lo I'm feeling very lonely if i was in India at least i can ask my parents to join me for sometime but here its not possible next year I'm planning to go India I'm really missing my parents but i don't know what problems are awaiting for me there