Final try - 20 days of change (cycle 1)

Esh · Jan 31, 2015

Ever since I was 10 years old I have been carrying excess weight. I am 31 now, still overweight, still feeling miserable and still struggling. I feel extremely ashamed that I have failed again and again in keeping my weight under control.

I am sick. Sick of being conscious of what wear, sick of hearing "hey, you have put on weight", sick of eating and feel like I shouldn't have eaten that and sick of looking at the mirror and seeing someone else.

I am now 72.1kgs, which is ridiculous amount of weight for someone who is only 4.9ft. If I dont do something about it now, the situation might become worse. Ever since i crossed 65kgs, I have been facing various health issues.

I want put a stop to it now. Having been a silent reader for couple of years, I have seen the motivation indus ladies can provide and i belive that it will help me over come this struggle.

I plan on doing this for 20 days first. Why?
Long term self control has always been my down fall. So I want to make sure I don't fall yet again.

Before I officially start this journey I want to explore the things that has brought me here and stopped me from succeeding previously.

How did I get to 72.1kgs?
1. Over eating/binge eating
2. Emotional eating
3. Extreme laziness
4. Inactive lifestyle

Why did I fail multiple times?
1. Change - whenever there is a slight change to my schedule I conveniently stop healthy eating and excerice
2. Lack of consistent discipline and self control
3. Excuses. Oh, I had to do this or that therefore I didn't have time.

Now I know the problems that stopped me from being healthy and i am determined to overcome these issues. I sincerely hope that this is going to be my final try in achieving my weightloss goals.

Lookout out for daily updates and I hope my dear ladies will support me throughout this journey.

SGA · Jan 31, 2015

All The Best Esh

pinki13 · Jan 31, 2015

Hey Iam in the same boat, now Iam suffering from hypothyroid and Pcos with irregular period, long back in 2011 I was able to loss 6 kg just in 2 month. then i maintained that weight till last year but now suddenly there is a huge gain of weight which is 81 now. from 65 to 81 is really a big number. This year I really want to puss myself. For that i want to join you as a buddy.

I will Update here my diet and exercise, from tomorrow onward Iam including oats in my diet either in lunch or in dinner and try to walk atleast 2-3 km. and drink 2 liter of water.

Esh · Jan 31, 2015

Hey, thanks SGA! :hatsoff

Hey Pinki! Let's do this!! I have PCOS and irregular periods too. Let's not let that set us back. I will be posting the same too, workouts, food and water intake.
Let's look forward to the best 20 days of our lives. hugsmiley

shruthipraveen · Jan 31, 2015

Esh,your situation is the same as mine with drastic weight gain in both the pregnancy periods. I have a big fat sweet jaw which the MAJOR reason for my wt gain and inability to get back to normal size.
I'm now 74 kgs at 5ft2in. I need motivation to stay focused. I find it hard to stay motivated for too long, that's the main issue. :-(
Can we do it together?

Esh · Jan 31, 2015

Hi Shruthi,

of course you are welcome to join us! Start today and start now! Let's do this!

Esh · Jan 31, 2015

Day 1

Food:
Breakfast - Nil
Mid afternoon snack - Ate more than half a packet of quadratini wafers.
Lunch: 3 dosas with spinach sambar
Dinner - watermelon and honey dew

Today's start was not good because I decided to start this journey after making bad choices for breakfast and lunch. I felt disgusted with myself for eating probably more than 1000 calories of wafers and then 3 dosas. :bang

Water - less than 2ltrs
I will start measuring the water intake from tomorrow onwards. :thumbsup

Workout:
Walking - 5kms

I almost died while walking because it's been so long since I had any type of physical activity. I know it will get easier day by day. Looking forward to that.

Level of activity: low

I am adding level of activity as one of the key things to watch everyday because working out for an hour is not enough. I want to make sure that I keep myself active throughout the day, either by cleaning my home or going out or shopping! ;-)

SGA · Jan 31, 2015

Esh

One thing i can say is : Eat Breakfast .....Good Healthy breakfast is important for metabolism which inturn helps to reduce weight

Think positive : Rather then saying it as Final Try .... Think of it as New Beginning for Better you

Esh · Jan 31, 2015

Hey SGA,

Yes! agreed, breakfast is key! looking forward to it tml.

You are right! It is the new beginning! Is it possible to change the title?

SGA · Jan 31, 2015

Its ok what the tittle is as long as you believe that its a new beginning ..... You can request moderator Laks09 to change title name

I am just changing your words as I have been on your Place , I m 4 9" in height and having PCOS with irregular periods , what helps me is a stubborn mind which dont believe in giving up ....

Before giving Up think about all the good things you will Miss ......Cute cloths , Making relatives jealous who are always after your weight and most important good Health