Aksar- An ode to 22

Hi friends,
This is the poem which i wrote years before i met love of my life, my wife.. I always wonder what made me write this then.. I may not have the pertinent expressions but all i can say is i have the pertinent emotions..

Kisi ke khayalo main khoya hua aksar
Yaaroo ko main anjaana sa nazar aata hoon..
Woh baat baat par badalte mausam sa mizaaz
Logo ko main deewana sa nazar aata hoon..
Woh pal main yu hasna, Woh pal main yu rona..
Kabhi besudh ho tanhayi main sapne sanjona..
Par na paana tera aasan, na aasan tera khona..

Kabhi jo khud se baat karta hoon
Toh lagta hai ki tum ho..
Haan shayad tum ho tumhi ho kahi..
Mujh main hi kahi..
Jo aawaz deti ho mujhe
Kabhi bheed main toh kabhi tanhayi main..
Aur fhir main jo aksar kho jata hoon
toh lagta hai ki tum ho.. tum hi ho kahi..

Tum jo bus mere liye hi aayi ho..
Ban ke madhoshi hardam jo mujh par chayi ho..
Lagta hai ki bus tum meri ho..meri ho..meri ho..
Fhir kabhi kahi lagta hai ki tum toh bus ek kalpana ho..
Ek khwab jo aankh khulte hi toot jayega..
Ek saath jo kabhi chhot jayega..
Dahdkan fhir doobti si jati hai..
saans ki door chhoti si jati hai..
Tab yaad aati ho tum,
tumhare badan ki khushboo, tumhara ehsaas..
Pass na hokar bhi tumhare hone ka ehsaas..
Toh lagta hai ki bus tum meri ho..meri ho..meri ho..

Na paa sake tumhe gar toh kya..
Tum nahi par Tumhari aarzoo hi sahi..
Na ho jo saath tum fhir bhi..
Tum nahi par Tumhari justjoo hi sahi..
Fhir bhi jane kyu mujh ko yakeen hai ki..
Tum meri ho.. meri ho.. meri ho...

Aur tumhare khayalo main gum main..
Tumko hi begaana sa nazar aata hoon..
Tum hi chahat tumhari hi aarzoo main..
sabko deewana sa nazar aata hoon...
......Amit