Infertility: A frustrating phase in a woman's life

Hello Pumpkin01,

Thanks for your encouraging words. I don't know if stress really play that important role as I have seen several women with high stress having babies. My doctor says it could be due to shaky metabolism - a result of hypothyroidism. On another note, while undergoing my first IUI, we both underwent heavy medical examinations. My husband's results are quite good in every way...

 

Hi Anitha Anand18, I'm so sorry to hear that you too are undergoing the same agony that I'm facing. Being positive is the toughest thing when one hits the rough patch. I'm yet to resume with my treatment. And it's gonna take another year as the country I'm every thing goes at the snail's speed....

 

Hello God 2014 thanks for those links. I'll definitely go through it once I'm in a right frame of mind. I don't know somehow I have become extremely negative over a period time. And I truly want to get out of this bleak phase and want to have a positive outlook towards life. Some days I'm high with energy and full of optimism and other days I'm drown in pessimism...hardly feel like getting out of the bed. I'm undergoing high mood swings....

 

You are absolutely right. There is hardly we can do except for praying and whining This shows how powerless we humans are at times.

 

Your words made me feel good. This is the mantra I always believed in. When you hit the rock bottom the only out is to go up. Hope the day comes soon! Again I don't know how much stress contributes as I'm suffering from irregular menstrual cycl for the last many years. Sometimes it comes once in three months, sometimes I spot for many days...some times it comes once in a month. It's just ****ed up. Because this irregularity, I'm unable to time the intercourse....something my doctors are unable to treat me so far. I have changed at least 6 doctors.

 

I understand your point but then there comes certain days when I'm in a horrible state of mind. But I must admit that after reading all the replies by ILites, I'm actually feeling better All those wonderful practical words simply boosted my morale further. I'll pay heed to your words ) Thanks for taking your time out and replying to my post.

 

Thank you Happyperson for all those kind words, offers and hugs. Truly appreciate it

When I started the treatment I was a positive person. I rarely took any tension but when I couldn't see the much needed positive result, the mind started becoming more pessimistic.

I got an appointment with a doctor here at the end of the month. This is the last time I'm going to try...if it clicks then it's ok otherwise we have decided to go for adoption. No point in wasting time and building a castle in the air.

I started experiencing irregular periods few months after my marriage. So I paid a visit to my GP. She said since I don't plan to have a baby soon, she asked me to ignore it or go for contraceptive pills to regularise it. But I was apprehensive about the P Pills and this bothered me. After a lot of pestering, she finally referred me to a good gynac who conducted lot of tests including few internal ones. He ruled out organic problem but said that my sexual binding hormone is out of the place. He referred me to an endocrinologist. The endo after conducting few more rounds of blood test came to the conclusion that I'm suffering from Hashimoto's Thyrodities (hypothyroidism). They tried to normalise it without medication by simply making me wait for two years. Again I had to stress it that I want stablise hypothroid. So he put me on levothyroxine as well as contraceptive pills to regularise my menstruation.

I was on contraceptive pills for a year. We planned to TTC on the fourth year of the marriage so I stopped taking the pills as the body takes almost a year to flush out those synthetic hormones. Periods came after three months and it came on time for the next six months. But after six months it become irregular again...made few more trips to the doc. Finally she referred to a fertility specialist. She came to the conclusion that the irregular menstruation and lack of regular ovulation is due to hypothyroid although I'm on medication for that. So that was my story!

Another problem is when I left India to start a new life abroad, I had loads of friends...but as the days went by the relationships become fragile and it broke off. It's like - out of sight out of mind. I tried to maintain the relationships through social networking sites but in vain. They started having new friends...new inside jokes...new groups...so I had to let go and accept the harsh reality. Now frankly speaking, I don't have a single friend with whom I can speak to - a major reason why I turned to IL.

I tried making friends in the country that I lived before. I simply couldn't due to cultural clashes...that further made me a loner. Even today I'm a loner and I want to break this spell soon...this is not who I am. This is the cost I paid for leaving my country!!! Now hoping to make some good friends here

 

Awwww...So sweet of you Manali. Like wise I wish you the same ) May you complete the circle of womanhood and becomes a mother soon!! Praying the almighty to give me and women, who are in my situation, enough strength to have Hope!!!