Struggling For Baby..

ammubabu · Feb 26, 2014

Hello everyone.. hope all are doing good..

I'm 25 years old.. i have been married since 2011 and trying to conceive almost 13 months.. beginning stage i went to obgyn and they said all are normal, so keep trying.. we just relaxed.. but conceive didn't happened..

4 months back went to another obgyn and they put me under clomid.. i tried clomid for 4 months with failure.. after that had HSG, during the procedure my nurse said my both tubes looks normal and don't need to worry, i was happy.. one week later my tough time started.. got a call from Dr's office and they told i'm having left tube blockage.. i was shocked and cried a lot and my obgyn suggested another specialist..

And consult that specialist they did Sonohystrogram.. got pained like a hell and unbearable.. Dr told me i'm having endometriosis and they wanted to remove.. and also i did blood test.. another one week later got a call from Dr's office they said i'm having High prolactin levels and prolactinomas (non cancerous tumor in pituitary gland) next week having a Dr appointment, don't know what are all the shock and surprise waiting for me..

i don't know how to face my husband.. each and every day i'm dying b'cause of complex.. i couldn't talk to my friends, i couldn't talk to my families, i couldn't cook properly, i hate everything i don't know what is the mistake i did and having this much of punishments.

my husband is the big support to me, but some part of time he would become very frustrated and yelling at me.. and after some time he will ask me sorry, don't worry, i will be with u....

i don't know what to do.. i'm totally depressed..

rajinitk4 · Feb 26, 2014

Dear Ammubabu

Hugs to you. Please dont get depressed. Dont think you are at faullt and being punished. First please remove all such negative thoughts. You should be strong during this Phase. Your husband also must be shocked with the findings. you both need to support each other during this phase. Dont blame each other or Dont think its your fault and you are being punished. Its none of your fault.

You both have to be strong and support each other during this tough phase and overcome this.

You will come out of all these problems pretty soon and will be blessed.

Am also TTC since more than 7 yrs and still not blessed but am sure god is taking his own time to make special babies for us.

You also have to start thinking positively and stop cursing yourself for no fault of yours.

Vasumathy · Feb 26, 2014

HI Ammubabu,
Relax!
Prolactin levels can be controlled with tablets easily and the tumor will vanish automatically once you make the prolactin levels under normal range. I have taken tablets for prolactin on & off! You don't need to worry much on it, just need to swallow a pill for it!
Coming to endometriosis, i don't have much exposure with it. Still have seen many people conceived with it along with proper treatments & care.
Tube blocks are becoming normal. Hearing it from many people. I have tube block which gets reversed automatically, on its own! Though i couldn't heal it or treat it, i could try IVF to proceed further.

Check with your doctor. There are chances for conception & healthy pregnancy. With proper care & treatment you will see positive news with pregnancy & rest will go well! Talk to your doctor on all the conditions and decide appropriate treatment for it!
Hope your age isn't running fast with 30+!

Eat good. Choose a healthy life style. Do regular exercises! Things will settle down! Be strong & positive!
Take care!

ammubabu · Feb 26, 2014

Hi rajinitk4...thank so much for ur encouraging words.. it makes me feel better.. thank u for ur reply.. i will try to come out of it..

hope god be with us..

ammubabu · Feb 26, 2014

Hi vasumathy...

thank u so much for ur reply.. yes i'm changing my food habits little by little and doing exercise daily..

and also next week having DR appointment, i will talk to DR for proceed further.. thanks a lot for ur encouraging words..

Reha · Feb 28, 2014

Babu lots of hugs to you hugsmiley , pls don't think it is a punishment. It's not your fault. Nobody wants to get sick but people do. You have to be strong , i know infertility is very tough. But God only test those who are tough enough to face it. Having said that i am suffering from endometriosis,partially blocked tube,high estrogen and low progesterone. I am moving ahead with IVF. But i have seen many endo ladies getting pregnant naturally. I am 32 so at least age is by your side.....you are just 25. I got married when i was 26 and started ttc when i was 30. Have faith and do talk with your husband and tell him how you feel. I am sure he will understand. Having endo is not the end of the world, just be strong. Take up some hobbies so that your mind will be diverted. Lots of wishes to you dear :2thumbsup:

ammubabu · Mar 1, 2014

yes reha.. i'm trying to divert my mind.. started doing painting, yoga and walking..

Thank u so much Reha for ur reply..

Ihavehope · Mar 4, 2014

Ammubabu....do not worry! You will get pregnant and have child very soon! Having endo is not the end of the world. There are many people I know who got pregnant (including me) with severe endo. Just keep up the faith and know that you are closer to your destiny of becoming a mother as each day passes!

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